Playing with Sarah was fantastic. I had a fabulous time. The Professor did a great job of beating me. I ended up not playing with Noah.
There’s this thing. Since I was 18 and I showed up in the scene people have been commenting on how loud I am. Sometimes just in a teasing way, sometimes in a “You shouldn’t do that; you should be quiet. Be more like…”
At this point I’m over sensitive. I can’t really hear what someone means in the moment. What I hear is, “You’re too loud.”
So I completely withdrew and that was the end of play. Because I feel ashamed.
Yes, I’m loud.