Tonight FMC asked me why I call them “angel”. I asked them if they know what an angel is and they said not really.
I told them that angels are spirits. Mostly they are basically good but some of them are dark. Angels bring gifts like joy and love.
I said that they brought joy and love and happiness into my life. So it’s like they are an angel sent to me.
They asked me, “Am I like a dark angel? Like a demon?”
I asked them what they think. Like I do.
They said, “I don’t know. I do the wrong thing a lot.”
I said, “That’s because there are a whole bunch of things you want to learn and you can’t learn without making mistakes. Wanting to learn doesn’t make you a demon. Trying something that turns out to be the wrong thing doesn’t make you a demon. Setting out to be cruel is different. Setting out to hurt and damage people is different. Purposefully trying to destroy people…. that’s evil.”
“I don’t do that!”
“No. You don’t. You are a kid who is trying to learn who you want to grow up to be and sometimes in that process you make choices that are not like the choices you hope you will make as a grown up… because you have to learn. The fact that you keep trying to be better… sweetheart that is about you reaching for the light. Dark angels don’t do that.”
Their face relaxed and they smiled at me. They told me that they love me.
I love you my baby.