Last night I did something that scared the ever-lovin-shit out of me. I went to the second Saturday party that I’ve been going to forever and ever. Well, at least since I was 18. 🙂 Tom had his new girl. I knew he would be bringing his new girl. She is prettier than me. 🙁 And she seems very nice. I didn’t really talk to her, but I thought I was doing well to even smile at her last night. I know I should be glad that he got to trade up, but it is hard.

I managed to keep it together for the two hours I was there. A friend asked me to play. There was just no way. It is going to be very hard to be happy and supportive of his new relationship, but damnit. I’ll manage. I love him very much and I want him to be happy. If she will make him happy, then that is what he should be doing right now.

He told me how much he has been looking forward to our Ireland trip together. We leave in 24 days. Oh my God that is soon. By the time we leave we will have been broken up for almost 5 months. That is a while. It is going to be very odd. I wonder how we will interact on the trip. I miss him so much. It will be hard to be at all distant during the trip.

He wants me to bring both Ted and Edmund along on the trip. He was very amused when I got excited about being able to bring more than just a backpack. Ok, so I was being a retard. Oh well.