Yeah, cause only some of you want to see this.
The only way I got through last night of meeting Tom’s girlfriend was I got high. A few friends are pot heads and they’ve been offering me pot for years. I finally took them up on it. When I first walked outside to talk to them I burst into tears. I sobbed for like five minutes after meeting Tom’s new girl. She really is gorgeous. She has a body to die for. 🙁 I couldn’t pull off a dress like that. I’m really glad I didn’t half ass ‘dress’ for the party. If I would have gone full out I would have been ok, or staying in Dickens stuff was ok.
I’m not sure how I feel about starting to depend more on chemicals, but I ended up having fun last night when I didn’t think I would. I’m ok with that.
I’m not sure how I feel about starting to depend more on chemicals
Sure you do.
OH – that would explain the PARANOIA!!! (“she’s prettier than me” “I should be glad that he got to trade up”)
*smack* You’re beautiful, intelligent, wicked funny, and you know what you want. Besides, if he can support your poly and all you guys have been going through, I think you can be brave enough to suppport him.
Good job keeping it together IN SPITE of the chemicals. Give yourself credit girlie – pot is hardly going to have “given you the strength” to deal with last night. That was ALL YOU.
just two comments….
1. Too bad I didn’t go outside with you [g]
2. Which ones were Tom and the new girl?
Y’know, Raven mentioned you talking about this, too.
While I couldn’t tell if she had a body to die for in the outfit I saw her in…
Y’know, my first reaction was “eh, she’s okay,” followed by “she seems nice, and slightly traumatized”.
If you recall, my initial reaction to *you* was significantly more positive.