He has decided that he needs to be celibate for a while because he is using sex in unhealthy ways. I think that is a great decision for him given what he has been up to in the last year. It’s hard being the girl who teaches guys what they don’t want. We talked about how awkward things have been on the past few dates. No, he can’t fix me and I’m not ok with him being mad at me because he can’t. I feel like telling people these things about my past puts up a brick wall between us. The phrase “I don’t know what to say” makes me want to break things. I would much prefer that people sit in silence than say that. Noah says, “Wow. That sucked.” As simple as that. It’s why I married him. He gets me.
Sorry it wasn’t what you’d hoped for.
You know how sometimes things turn out to be not what you thought you wanted, but instead they are what you need? I’m actually pretty thrilled with muse. He’s not a great person for me to date long term, but I think we will remain good friends. He’s a really neat person and I’m glad I met him.
It has turned out that being gone three nights a week is harder than I thought anyway. I wasn’t sleeping enough and two weeks was probably enough of burning the candle at both ends. We really did have fabulous sex together. 🙂
I’m glad that me talking to him about his emotional needs convinced him that he should stop trading casual sex for emotional needs. It doesn’t work. I’d much rather be his friend and meet his emotional needs without the sex so that he learns that he is worth that from people. I’m strangely really happy about this.
not sure what’s in the book, but I am here to listen.
I’m writing about my life. As many details as I can.
Our damage is different, but I feel like we get each other’s broken nonetheless, so…I am here and want to read it.
From our email conversation, I’m very curious.
I could see myself saying “I don’t know what to say” when I don’t know if you want sympathy, or to vent, or just want talk.
But I’m ok with you breaking things if I say that.