The stockings are filled. Santa presents are arranged. The small batch of gifts is under the tiniest tree. (We have 3 for a long list of reasons I’m not going to explain. This is the child sized one.)
I am breathing deeply. I miss Noah. I miss Noah like my soul is on fire and I cannot breathe without him. Yet on I move. I continue to breathe. I continue to do things and feel things and talk to people and smile. I will cuddle my babies today. I will try again on cinnamon rolls. Today I will play games and be silly. It will be fun.
On we go. Always forward. Time to turn the oven on for baking the bread.
Happy Solstice. I hope your day was the best day it could be for how things are. Fritz and I went for a walk after lunch in the bit of sun we get today. It was nice to have a sunny day. Most of December this year has been gray and rainy. We have a tree up in our apartment and some plans for the winter holiday so things are good here. I will miss getting to see my family for christmas but it works better to travel this summer to see them. So we have a tree here this year and are settling into our new apartment. We moved to a different part of Stockholm in early November. Hugs for you when you want them.