In case anyone was curious–the best way to remove your thumb is not by breaking a glass while doing dishes. Whereas this may result in a deep and unhappy wound, your thumb will technically still be attached.
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Happy Steak and Blowjob Day!!
This is one of my favorite holidays. 🙂
I hope everyone celebrates as much as they see fit. 😉
Lessons learned
When you are traveling for the weekend and you have plans to meet a friend it might be worthwhile to ask about the formality of dinner. If one shows up in jeans, hiking shoes, and a ratty sweatshirt at a four star restaurant one feels like a total loser. Dinner, of course, was excellent anyway.
Fairies are sometimes pugs in disguise, but you have to listen very closely for the evidence.
It is possible to fall in love with yourself while driving and doing some hard thinking about the future.
If one is going to not have conversation during a six hour trip it is better to be alone in the car. Silent people suck.
If someone is treating someone else in a way that would offend me it is not my place to say that the behavior is offensive. I need to be better at minding my own business.
I never want to have surgery on my nose.
I am going to have a child. It isn’t in question. (No I’m not pregnant and I won’t be in the next two years.) I don’t need to have a partner in order to produce a wonderful child. As long as I feel like I require a partner for this I will be frantic and upset, but I know enough women who have managed to bring forth some of the best kids I have ever met without needing to have a partner around for help. I know it isn’t easy, but I am starting out with the advantage of a career where supporting myself and my child will be less of a struggle. I can do this. This is what I want from my life.
If you see a rainbow that takes your breath away call someone and tell them about it. It will brighten your day and theirs.
My apartment is small-like
So I am eliminating places to set crap so that I have to actually put stuff away more often and I have less clutter.
Well… it’s an idea…
Anyone want a maroon painted, locking, wooden toychest? Or a rather nice wood coffee table with a glass top? 🙂 I am going to put them on freecycle in the next day or two cause I want them out of here.
A weekend (almost entirely) at home.
So I have to run out on Saturday for therapy and then a little bit of other stuff in parts north so Saturday isn’t part of this… (What a weird exception…)
But I will be spending this coming Friday and Sunday in my house. I’m NOT leaving. So I would like to invite people to drop by as they see fit. 🙂 Some notice of what day/time-ish to expect you would be awesome but I am going to be generally hanging around my house doing homework, watching movies, cooking, probably baking, and generally slacking from about 3pm on Friday until 10:30 am Saturday (feel free to spend the night). Then I run north for an undetermined period of time so I am just saying that you can show up whenever you like on Sunday cause I can promise that I will be awake before just about anyone on my friends list. 🙂 Ok, maybe James will be up at the same time–but I’ve been freakish lately about 6:30 and he usually sleeps at least a little more than that…
This post is not going to exist forever because it has personal data in it, but if you want this information in general consider this your opportunity to copy it into your address book. 🙂
5259 Camden Ave #69
San Jose, CA. 95124
408-202-4083
Parking is a bit strange. There is lots of unmarked spaces in the back of the complex but then finding my apartment is complicated. If you are coming down Camden from 85 make a right on Merrill Ave. Take the… fourth or fifth driveway… it’s the last one into the big apartment complex. Follow the ugly chainlink fence down almost to the very end. Park in any of the unmarked spots. Then walk down the driveway thing (as straight as possible) until you run into a wall. Walk just a bit to the right and you should see a stairway. Walk up and the building you see across from you is mine. I’m down almost at the very end. Please feel free to call me and tell me that my directions suck ass and where the hell are you. 🙂
Outlook is dead. Fuck Outlook.
Just sayin…
There isn’t much point in having several people tell me that I fucked up in a posting. If you notice that someone already did… I don’t really need to have three people tell me I’m dumb. I get it. Perhaps I am simply not at the computer yet and I have not been able to fix it yet.
a rare post that is political.
I actually read some news today and these links have made me very happy.
http://tinyurl.com/qfbc8 Takes you to: 13) CA: Court says Berkeley can charge Scouts rentSan Francisco Chronicle”The state Supreme Court, in a victory for gay-rights advocates, ruled unanimouslytoday that Berkeley could withdraw a rent subsidy to a Boy Scouts affiliate at thecity marina because of the scouts’ no-gays-allowed policy. Although the U.S. SupremeCourt ruled in 2000 that the Boy Scouts had a constitutional right to exclude gays,Berkeley is not required to provide funding to an organization that violates thecity’s antidiscrimination policy, the state justices said. Cities can requirerecipients of public money to ‘provide written, unambiguous assurances ofcompliances with a generally applicable nondiscrimination policy,’ Justice KathrynMickle Werdegar said in her opinion for the court. The case involved the Sea Scouts,a nonprofit organization that teaches sailing and maritime skills to teenagers. TheBoy Scouts affiliate used space at the Berkeley Marina without charge from the 1930suntil 1998, when the City Council eliminated rent subsidies at the marina fornonprofits that discriminated on the basis of sexual orientation, religion or various othercategories.” (03/09/06)
http://lonestartimes.com/2006/03/09/gun-control-reduces-violence/ For: Gun control reduces violence?Lone Star Timesby Jeremy Weidenhof”Our friends across the pond in England have enacted fairly strict gun controlmeasures in recent years in response to rising violent crime rates, and have anextensive network of cameras to keep a governmental eye on the populace. In fact,things are so peaceful in this now gun-free utopia that schoolchildren are sent toclass in body armor to protect against being stabbed.” (03/09/06)
Oh, and less political:
http://www.alternet.org/story/33299/ For: Is three wives a crowd?AlterNetby Kara Jesella”‘Can he have sex with both of them at the same time?’ That’s what my boyfriendasked midway through a screening of ‘Big Love,’ HBO’s new drama about a polygamistfamily (the first episode premieres this Sunday, March 17, after ‘The Sopranos’).I’m not sure whether patriarch Bill Henrickson (Bill Paxton) can havemultiple-partner rendezvous with his three wives, Barb (played by JeanneTripplehorn), Nicki (Chloe Sevigny), and Margene (Ginnifer Goodwin), but based onthe first episode, it looks like he doesn’t. Except for the fact that he sleeps witha different woman every night, Bill seems as vanilla as can be. Still, I don’t thinkmy boyfriend’s question was just wishful thinking. Polygamy is pretty confusing tomost monogamists.” (03/10/06)
http://www.csmonitor.com/2006/0309/p09s01-coop.html What’s so scary about feminism?Christian Science Monitorby Debra Bruno”The other day at work, some colleagues and I were discussing a chain restaurantknown for its scantily clad waitresses. I was taken aback for a moment. ‘They havethe best sports bar in my area,’ one person said. ‘I hear they have great Buffalowings,’ said another. It was a moment of disconnect. ‘But how can anyone go toplaces like that?’ I asked. ‘What about the objectification of women’s bodies?’ Thewhat of the who? My colleagues, many of them young enough to be my offspring, gaveme puzzled, bemused looks. ‘This is one of those feminist things, isn’t it?’ someoneasked. ‘Yes, I’m a feminist. Yes, I did consciousness raising,’ I said. ‘What’sconsciousness raising?’ It was my turn to be startled.” (03/09/06)
Sick
and not mentally.
I feel awful. My sinuses are getting worse and worse. My throat hurts. My head hurts. My stomach is becoming very very cranky. My uhhh lower functions are not going well.
This is when I hate living alone. I think I’m bailing on class tonight.
answering
Cause I had several questions in the generic “tell me something dirty” post I’ll answer them already. (Oh, and these comments are not screened.) (This did make it up one filter notch. There are people who don’t want to read dirty stuff from me…)
“Your ‘net is down? Oh teh noes! We’re still on for next Monday evening?”
As far as I know… You are showing up around 9:45 is my current information?
“Ooh…since this is screened. What’s is your favorite sexual position and what fetishes do you have? :)”
My favorite sexual position honestly varies by mood and by person. There are some people who just work better in different positions… However, generically the one that I like the best is kind of hard to explain. It involves me lying on my side with the male (cause with females positions tend to be very different) kneeling over me. One of my legs is between his legs and my other leg is up against his chest, can be straight or bent. This allows for some AWESOME friction and angles and such. 🙂
What fetishes do I have? Technically I don’t have any fetishes because a fetish is something that is required in order achieve orgasm. I know that isn’t what you meant though. How about this: I like to please people. On my own, in a vaccuum, there isn’t much that I am terribly into. Although my general preferences and the things I like the most (so hopefully I find partners who like them too) lie in the realm of lingerie, girdles, corsets, long and full skirts, bondage, spanking (like Lolita teaches it!), single tails, and gags. But none of them qualify as a “fetish.”
Questions
I’m bored at work, so what the hell.
Lolita and Julia both did it, so I will, too.
March is question month here. Feel free to ask anything you might want to know and I will endeavor to answer. I will answer the questions on my journal in a friends-only post. I will not say who asked.
I am screening the questions.
Computers hate me
My internet email server is down. There is at least one person whom I have been having a conversation with that I can’t follow up on. If you have sent me an email in the past 20 hours-ish, I haven’t seen it. We can switch the conversation to tribe.net or you can leave me a note here.
All comments screened.
Hey, this is a good time to tell me something dirty!
scheduling
Is anything other than FNW happening on the 17th? I know I want to do a little bit of time in downtown Campbell but after that I don’t know what I want to do. I’m debating FNW, but I may actually just invite people over to my house for some revelry of our own.
Would that interest anyone?
Sluttery in full swing.
I went to three parties last night. The first two were raunchy sex parties. I got laid at both. I got laid more than once at the second one. I got to eat out a very wonderful girl–it’s been a while and damn was I missing that. I had several cocks in my mouth over the evening. (Now ya’ll know why I carry a toothbrush with me to parties and antibacterial soap! The coatcheck girls are amused by me running back and forth.)
Does anyone remember the guy I had a fling with about a year and a half ago? http://boot-slut.livejournal.com/69236.html (Yeah–that’s hard to ring a bell I know.) I asked him if he wanted a night, a week, or a month and he said he only wanted a night. I went for it and it was by far the best one-time sex I have ever had. We really click in bed. I did it agreeing to the terms of never ever contacting him again. He showed up last night. He zoned in on me immidiately and started flirting with me like crazy. *Then* we both figured out that we knew one another. Ha! He’s still that good in bed. We both still have one another saved in our phones. He said that he respects me tremendously for following the rules. He’s going to break the rules and keep in contact with me this time.
But the fucking amazing bit was–dude. He gave me the fucking speech. You know, the “I want to be play partners but I don’t think we should have a relationship” speech. I almost slapped him. I told him that he was a flaming asshole and that he is treating me like a clingy crazy girl and that is so far from reality that it is outrageous. I told him that if he wants to tell me that I am good enough to be a fuck toy and not good enough to be anything else then he doesn’t need to call me. He apologized and said that wasn’t what he meant. Yeah asshole, but it is what you *Said*. I gave him a chance to redeem himself and he sucked up prettily. If I weren’t so hot for him I would refuse to talk with him again, but as it is… yeah. I’ll talk to him again. He is fairly local and a very reliably fantastic fuck. He’s still an asshole though. I almost told him that the last guy who gave me that speech stayed with me for four years. I was good.
Oh, and the best acronym fill in the blank ever: Breeder In Training Coveting Husband.
Hey virgos
Rob says: It will be a rather animalistic week, Virgo–or at least it should be. I suggest that you learn to feel more trust in your primal instincts; find out more about the part of you that doesn’t use words. If you’ve got the luxury to experiment, see what it’s like when you give your inner beast permission to express all of its creativity. The coming days will also be prime time to befriend lone wolves, horse around with wise old owls, welcome back lost sheep, play possum with jackasses, and flirt with sacred cows.
Hmmmm.
Ha. My life, she does not suck.
Potential tmi stuff.
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The good, the bad, and the scheduling.
Bad first:
I had a conversation today that attacked my faith in humanity. Someone that I have liked expressed some opinions that go beyond me disliking them. My friends have opinions I dislike on a regular basis and I deal with that. However, someone believing that doctors and pharmacists should be allowed to not treat patients if they don’t want to I… it’s beyond dislike. Should teachers be able to say they don’t like a student and will not teach them? Should police officers only protect and serve people they like? The idea of people in service jobs only serving people they like/want to serve offends the very core of me. Does that mean that schools should not have been integrated? Should women still not be allowed to attend college or hold jobs of their own or…
I believe that this person is childish and immature and selfish and self-centered in ways that could be potentially harmful to other people. I’m glad I learned that before I developed any real affection for her because now I know that I don’t want to. I feel kind of sad that there are such people in my general circle though. 🙁
Ok, that was the bad bit of my day.
There were many good bits though. I found out that it isn’t “necessary” for me to go visit the most wonderful fairy I know next weekend because technically she doesn’t “need” my help. Instead, I get to go visit her because she is wonderful enough to want to see me and I get to spend time with one of the most amazing women I know. I think that deserves a big fat YAY!!!
I got a lovely massage from a dear man and I feel more grounded and centered and happy. Also sleepy. 🙂 I might actually sleep tonight!
I got to spend time with the new partner of a dear friend and it was awesome. She is smart and funny and interesting and not psycho and not a bitch and not a whiney dependent dipshit. I am so happy his taste has improved since me. 😉 Seriously though, I really need to spend more time with her while she is here because I think she is that rare kind of person that I will actually like *and* respect. 🙂 Another definate yay!
I’m really happy that I don’t feel as sad as I did last night.
Scheduling!!! What in the fuck is happening this weekend? I haven’t figured out what the freak I am doing and I know I am swimming in options so please help me out here! 🙂 If you don’t want to leave a comment send me an email. Thanks! 🙂
RAWR!
Today I am feeling lonely and I hate the feeling. I know it is a cycle and it will pass, but it sucks ass to be in this place.
Question: do non-crazy people have mood swings too? I don’t actually know if my level/frequency/whatever of mood swings are unusual or crazy-indicating.
I think I have to accept that I am not actually “over” some of the relationship stuff I would like to be over and that irritates me.
To counteract the crappy feelings:
I made the most kick ass curry. I rule.
Reasons I love my school.
My principal is incredibly supportive and helpful.
My advisors are willing to help in any way humanly possible.
My department goes above and beyond what could ever be required of them.
And what happened today? My master teacher gave me money for work I did last semester. See, right now every class is loaded above contract limits and that means we are compensated (barely) for the extra students we have. She got a check for her overages and decided to give me the money for the class I took last semester. There is no reason in the world for her to have done so because student teachers aren’t paid in any way but she felt it would be a little bit of a bonus for me given how hard I worked.
How sweet is that? Of course it isn’t much money but it is the thought that counts! Not everyone on staff here is perfectly self-less but overall the atmosphere is that of “How can I help someone else have a better experience.”
I am so torn about next year. I want to go to Europe so much and I want to stay here so much. Waiting on the decision is so hard. Granted, I don’t get to make the decision until I am offered a job, but I’ve been told a dozen times that the job is likely assured.
I love my school!!!
Interesting trip
I noticed a lot of things this weekend. I used to feel bad that I didn’t follow/couldn’t follow their conversations about computer games/geeky stuff. Now I realize I just don’t give a shit and it isn’t a reflection of my intelligence. YAY!
It was very interesting. I bet I would have had fun talking with more of the SO’s of the geek boys, but I was being shy and I didn’t initiate many conversations. I had a great time talking with the host though–she’s a sometimes dancer and all-around nifty person. Catching up with her was probably worth the hike and being bored a lot of the time. I played a couple of games and did ok most of the time. I broke my boycott of Scrabble. I am more than somewhat amused that the entire situation felt like stepping into a time warp. They are the same people dressing in basically the same clothes doing the same things and having the same conversations. Ok, so they now intersperse comments about work instead of classes… but it was odd.
I no longer feel hated or rejected, but I am a bit more comfortable in knowing that it just isn’t my crowd. That is some lovely closure for me. 🙂
